like?liked?hate?hated?feel?felt?thought?think?try?tried?love?loved?what was then, is now over... sigh...
i met the two most stupid thieves on saturday!it was another fun dinner out with lizzie. we just had a yummy dinner at 'out of the pan', at Raffles City, and i suggested that we go walk a little since i was bursting from all that good stuff, so we went into Mango.i wonder if it was instincts or something like that, but when we walked into the shop, i seem to notice these two women, who were probably not locals, they looked more like filipino maids. well, and so my story goes... i was browsing through the rack and somehow, they decided to interfere between the pretty dresses and me, and cut in to take one of the outfits. so i was like 'oh, right... what's the hurry man? there isn't a big sale or something!' but i didn't really bother though. yet after they walked away, i had this urge to check my mobile phone for some reason. so, i rummaged the side pocket of my bag where i usually kept my mobile, wallet and ipod. but then, it seemed kinda empty, 'where is my mobile?' damn it! lizzie started panicking, but i just had this really strange feeling that those two women were the ones behind this. i was like 'i know who took it liz' and lizzie was like half confused and half worried. then i went through Mango to find those two assholes! and ta-da, i found one of them, who stupidly still wandered around Mango. ya, then i keep glaring at her, and she kinda got scared. hmm.. mass com really teaches you well, like how to keep a straight face and make people scared of you! right, so i took lizzie's mobile and called mine. sadly, the volume of my mobile was only at level 3, so it was quite inaudible since Mango had quite loud music. i was like damn it, should have made it louder! then, lizzie found the other woman and followed her to hear for m mobile, while i followed the one i found. then both of them got really really scared. so the one lizzie followed had my mobile, so she obviously knew that i knew what was going on, so she took my mobile out and left it at a shelf nearby. then lizzie heard it and saw it on the shelf, so she called me over. then the stupid woman still stood there and pretended to be shocked at a ringing mobile on the shelf! like she made it damn obvious that it was her la. it was an interesting experience, but i think it was a little of luck and instincts that helped me get it back! haha... part of me was wondering why they didn't take my ipod instead, like hello... that'll earn u more money than my silly lousy mobile that is scratched and dirty all over la! haha... be careful guys, stupid thieves are on the loose...
i know that this is hard,the pain you feel inside.you walk round in circles,you find a place to hide.the never-ending sorrow,of the sadistic misery.the memory that haunts you,God listens to your plea.God brought me here to make you happy.trust Him, trust me.
sometimes, u just don't know how to explain certain things.sometimes, things just happen.sometimes, things can't be controlled by anyone.sometimes, it's just meant to be.sometimes, it's so hard to express yourself.sometimes, you're just crazy in love.
life gets u excitedlove keeps u goinghope gives you faithtrust holds u updetermination gets u thereperseverance brings successnothing is impossible!
im confusedim disturbedim screwedim luckyim unluckyim happyim scaredim disillusionedim immatureim inexperiencedim stupidim narcisisticim just plain me.
it was a happy filming two-day thing. i had fun! a lot a lot of fun. just that... erm well, the guys were horribly irritating la!!! kept poking me when i told them that i hated being poked! urgh... we had wonderful talents that made our filming quite efficient. they were easy to work with and well, yeah, we had fun!
we also went climbing at the playground near ade's house. it was a spiderweb thing, just like the one in pasir-ris, just shorter. and yay... it was so fun!!! but my hands and feet really hurt after all that... then jesse n shah and weijie had to keep poking me!!! urgh... so horrible la... i hate that feeling! like there's this irritating horrible after-feeling of being poked and i hate it! bleagh...
other than that, i just spent 24 hrs without apples... sad or sad? sigh... i miss u lizzie, i really wanna tell u so many things that's going on, yet when you're online, im always too busy with my work to talk to u... sorry! but yeah, we'll meet up soon ya!
things are never what they seem,yet it is hard to tell.i heard this a million times, but it only rings a bell.i never thought it'll go so far,to reach this point in time.yet all i ever wanted,was to write this rhyme.maybe it's just me i guess,that im just day-dreaming.when i really find-out all,i think i will be screaming!
There are so many things that are happening around me which i don't exactly know of. Sometimes, i feel that my subconscious mind is playing games with me. I feel confused at times, like i don't really know what is going on. Maybe its cos im into my 4hours sleep routine again and im just a blur zombie walking around in school, maybe its cos im too ignorant, maybe its just cos im too self-centered. Am I? i feel so, im self-conscious, im selfish, im just plain mean. i try to be sincere, i try to care for others with my heart, but i end up doing it with my mind. i don't feel the concern for others, i just do it cos that's what im suppose to be doing, and that's what everyone expects. sometimes, i think people treat me too well. there are so many who treat me as their good friend and sometimes i have horrible thoughts of them, and so many comments that i just wanna throw at their faces. yet, i have to keep it to myself cos i don't wanna be the outcast, i don't wanna be hated, i don't wanna be alone. everyone thinks that im nice, that im friendly and a trustworthy friend. sometimes, even i don't trust myself. i don't even think im nice. i don't like the fake person taking this soul. i don't want to die. i just want to really find out what i was, what i am, and what i want to be. i am what i was, and i still am that person. i have no idea what i want to be, or how im going to be like. i just know that if anyone ever finds out the real me, i will surely walk this world alone. do you still like who i am?
it was a mean party!i ate and ate and ate... and ate somemore...i think my tummy is gonna join the united nations! but who cares? I DO! sometimes... oh well, thanks jeabbie for the yummy food and erm, nice place to fool around. the wine kinda made me a little high, for a few minutes... then it was the marshmallow... i think i ate at least 15 pieces of it! sugar rush!!! i cooked the most... yay!!! but who cares... nobody did... but i had fun cooking with jeabbie's daddy, his so funny! and dear boy-boy was so cute n cuddly... i wanna hug him forever... just that he was scared cos there were so many monsters around... so he kept running away! i swear it wasn't me... i mean im so cute n pretty too, so he definitely wasn't scared of me... really! ok fine, i admit, boy-boy might have been scared of me... but i love him anyway!yay... i was happy to spend the afternoon with yien and jeabbie's collage and the yummy brownies... and then the seeing lizzie and gerri and jeabbie and all of us together again.. yay!!! ok, God bless u guys... take care n study hard!feebee loves u!
it takes time to understand,difficult things to comprehend.the complex ways of human minds,are different, kind to kind.listen and learn, the beauty within,can only be felt, never seen.life is but a precious chance,never give up, with just a glance.look deeper into the heart,you'll find something, your part.stroll along the bank of joy,grow in God's rich fertile soil.take care my friends, nothing is impossible, there is no dead end to anything...He will make a way...
yay! the weekend is near... i haven't gotten the birthday presents for my buddies yet... i haven't been studying... i haven't been doing my work... i haven't been eating chocolates!!! this is terrible!!! i feel happy, just that im not so happy anymore cos of all this confusing nonsense that's going on and on... no, im not upset, i just feel terrible about all this. im so disorientated, im so messy, im such a disaster... no need for encouragement, no need for comfort, just tell me to get my ass outta my sofa and do smthg abt this mess... that's all i have to say abt this week...
oh how i love thee...you make my dayyour scent just keeps me alivei can just taste u at a glanceyou're too much to ask fori feel lost without ui just love chocolates...
so many of you in my mind,i try and try but i can't find,a reason for any of you to stay,but i don't want you to go away.so hard to tell anyone out there,yet i think its too much to bear.i know that you will never realise,this thing i have, they're all lies.what to do? what to do?
catch that twinkle in my eye,i am really not a spy.i couldn't help looking there,you seem as if you're everywhere!ooh i see you there again,hey you're gone i think i'll faint!oh my goodness you made me mad,you're the best i ever had!hope to see u everyday!!! :)
wow... hiking was actually fun!last saturday, my crazy marketing project group n i went to macritchie to do this really crazy thing-HIKE! i know its obvious what we're there to do... but we actually went hiking!!! it was interesting... like jesse managed to capture some monkey porn, then the tree-top trail was really cool.. like i finally understood all that geography stuff about the canopy layer, emergent layer... n all that nonsense... cos i saw it with my own eyes!!! ok that's not the main part of this adventure... u see... it was meant to be a bright sunny happy day... till i prob said smthg really mean... and the thunder striked n rain poured down on us... luckily we were under the huge tall tower... but, it wasn't much of help cos the planks were not put snugly close to each other, so rain seeped through n we got wet anyway... then we sat n waited for a while... took some group shots, ate chips... n fooled around with the ground sheet ade brought, "dong dong chiang!" we were lion dancing! haha... it was fun, just stoopid.after abt 30mins, we decided that the rain wouldn't stop, so we decided to keep going anyway... well, thanks to my hiking expertise n horrid experience with bad weather outdoor, i cleverly packed a few ziplock bags for our precious mobile phones, and my lovely ipod mini... so i kindly offered to help the rest keep it safe n dry... just that some smarty pants of jaime decided that her bag was perfectly water proof n claimed that her mobile phone would be fine through the downpour... so be it! we walked through the whole 6km through the rain... it was horrble at first... but fun after a while... the hill climb was crazy! the water was like flowing down so fast that it really looked like a river, literally! like whoa... it was flowing like mad, n our shoes were like sunken in as we trudged through that walkway that didn't really look like one in the rain... more like walking up a river!well... we finally made it through abt 12km of hiking and yay... i prob burned abt 400 calories or more, just that the prata we had after that prob put it all back on with some bonus! sigh... it was not quite tiring, but i was still well enough to think of going gym, but they scolded me for being crazy... oh well... i had fun! let's do this again guys... oh and by the way... jaime's mobile phone died in the end... cos it ended up getting wet in her lousy bag that's supposedly water proof. and she actually tried to turn it on while is was wet! i mean are u crazy? that was how i killed my first phone... you don't turn ur wet phone on while its wet... i was like 'hey don't...' n she moved too fast... it died a terrible death... what a tragedy... haha...