this is it. lizzie is really gonna leave for good. i really hope i can take it. at least i think i can take it, for now. its been a long long way back since our days in primary and secondary school. jc never really pulled us apart, like now, we're still so close and happy being each other's best friend. she was always my other half, the one who completed what i wasn't. she had in her everything i never had, you could really say that opposites attract. i never felt alone, i was never alone. even without seeing her for maybe two weeks, and when we meet again, everything feels the same, cos we're always smsing each other about our day. i felt as if i lived in her world, and i felt as if she lived in mine too.

but soon, im afraid, that i'll never be able to feel happy again. when im upset, i won't know who to talk to. when i have the best news of all, i have no one to share that with. and when i have a sudden thought that's just ridiculous to everyone else, liz will surely find it ok, who else would find it ok then? i was always the one who comforts, the one who advises, the one who tells her what to do when she's in trouble. when she was feeling down, i was always there to help her smile again. but in time to come, when i'll never be able to smile again, who would be there for me? life would never be the same. i just hope that God will continue to guide us both in our lives, and that our friendship will stay the same.

we're not lesbians by the way.