i wish...

things would be easy.
friends will be here.
thoughts would be loving.
a heart with no fear.

days with no sadness.
good times that never end.
dreams will be fufilled.
chocolates, again and again.

i wish...

a snowy hill on summer's night,
with a grateful heart of stone.
a funny lie to tickle the sad,
my friend you're not alone.

a flower growing in the ruins,
like rain, a storm, your tear.
green eyes upon your shoulders,
fear not, im always here.

a bitter candy like melted chocolate,
the strong taste so mild.
crying through her happy eyes,
God bless your lovely child.

peter is the best medicine

hello all...

me again.

pheobe is still ill. so she needs:
1. lots of water and rest.
2. her medication.
3. PETER.

hah.

get well fast phoebe.

chocolates are bad stuff...

yeah here i am down with a sore-throat and fever cos i've been binging on chocolates. horrid me. i've got nothing much to say about it though, just that it really sucks being sick. especially with a sore-throat, u can't cough or sneeze or swallow cos it hurts like hell. so don't eat too much chocolates k, give them to me... i'll eat them when i get better. hah.

yesterday was ok. meeting yien was the best part. then it was the mango sale and i bought like 2 pairs of jeans, im horrid. and the movie was too long. we watched king kong. it was just too long. like 2hrs into the movie and they were still in the freaking jungle. like get out of there and finish the movie will u. yeah that's about it. oh yeah, then i went to cheryl's place for a bbq with her classmates and council ppl. it was fun. but it sucks having a fever at a party. so don't eat too much chocolates k, give them to me... i'll eat them when i get better. hah.

phoebe has a fever

hello...

no prize for guessing who i am.

phoebe is down with a bad fever. i guess shes hotter than usual eh?

hah.

get well soon phoebe.

an unwilling heart,
for a happy day.
nothing in the hand,
everything to say.

unspoken promise,
lingering pain.
it was an ordeal,
with nothing to gain.

time will take,
the hurt away.
just waiting for,
a happier day.

merry christmas

dear all...

peter here again.

phoebe is one my most favourite friends in singapore, johor, and some say batam.

she is a very sweet girl who cares a lot for her friends. as a matter of fact, i think she cares more about our happiness than her own.

when i had a tonne of shit on my shoulders, phoebe made sure she helped wiped it off me. i recall her messages in the morning. it never failed to cheer me up. even now, her random messages still make me smile.

there are many things that make me fond of phoebe. but the one defining character about her is her weirdness. actually im bloughing. phoebes thoughtfulness cannot be matched. when you least expect it, youll see a container of brownies baked from scratch as a farewell gift. or handmade souvenirs for the graduating councillors. or earrings for a friends birthday. or a poke for no apparent reason. or a letter-cum-card.

what im trying to say is this: phoebe is truly a sweet girl.

and it doenst mean ive tasted her... you sick asses.

well i feel bad that liz and myself arent in singapore... but remember phoebe, were not really that far, just a bit further than usual.

im sure nothing will change in spite of the distance. so far, nothing has. maybe a little more difficult to contact one another, but were still good. liz is doing fine too phoebe. and yien is still a bus ride away. then you have jaime too. and your other friends.

so although things may appear to be different, theyve not changed too much.

i hope to be back in singapore soon.

i miss it there. and i miss you too.

anyway, its christmas!

phoebe likes chocolates and candy sticks (not canes...). so to those who are reading this, this is a HINT.

it will make her so happy she may consider cheating on me with you. hmmm...

ive got nice cards to share with all of you. so click here to see them!

compliments of the season to all of you...

and phoebe is a very special person indeed.

love you phoebe. so stop cheating on me!

its kinda late. pardon me if i dont make sense.

gdnite.

what they don't know,
hurts inside.
nothing like faith,
its all about pride.

memories unfold,
a painful past.
lost in existence,
a hidden mask.

tranquillity in terror,
peace in fear.
they do not know that,
my life is right here.

its Falala at Indochine...

we had dinner at NYDC, then we went for the party and danced the night away... lovely!

like 2 crazy chicks on the dance floor

and we had a crazy guy too... don't tell peter that i've been cheating on him!

of cos we look lovely, we took a darn long time to dress up!

lovely day...

together with my lovely class, we went out to corduroy and finch for a lovely dinner.

Here's my lovely prawn and mango salad.

and my lovely roast beef sandwich.

on the left is jaime's milkshake with whisky, and on the right is mine with vodka! lovely...

oh pretty things

oh being a so sweet, i gave jaime 2 pairs of lovely earrings and she had to wear them together... silly girl.

thank you

dear phoebe...

i just received the letter you sent last friday. its a pleasant surprise.

thanks!

youre not lonely, coz im here (or there) and yien is there (or here) and liz is there (or a bit there-r) and now youve got jaime whos there (and there).

well things will be fine!

thanks to peter my blog's been vadalised.

now everyone will know how scandalous i am.

damn.

well, i dunno what to blog about today.

just eat more chocolates people, it makes u happy. really happy.

love u all: peter, yien, gerri, jaime, mari, sue... of cos u too liz.

merry christmas to all. to hell with all u ppl partying! for goodness sake, christmas isn't a party season!

compliments of peter yap again

well this is weird.

phoebe writes blog entries for me, and i do her. hmmm... sounds wrong. hah.

anyway, phoebe is up to funny nonsense with jaime everyday. god knows what they do in the toilets of starbucks and breko.

they go out on the pretext of studying, but we all know they are up to some other nonsense, at least phoebe is, im sure.

so christmas is just around the corner. dont forget my present phoebe!

take care!

another day in school... how fun! jaime and i decided that we were gonna be hardworking! so we went hunting for books in the library...

see, lovely books to see my through this 2 weeks break.

and study never goes without junkfood. and yeah, junkfood.

GOLDFISH! yum these things are pretty and yummy!

compliments of peter yap

hello all...

peter here. phoebe has such a predictable password, i so couldnt resist the urge to hack into her blog.

hmmm. i have no idea what to say.

well dont miss me phoebe. try not to miss liz. and yien will be back soon.

youll like the christmas card that i sent.

gdnite.

its a freaking monday... but jaime started it happy for me. who would have thought that we would actually be late for lecture together? yeah we met at the bus stop and started our incessant laughter. and guess what? we went in like half an hour late for class. well, at least we made the effort to drag ourselves up the freaking hill under the bloody hot sun.

lecture dragged on forever. we were like discussing lunch. so we decided to feed ourselves at breko! so happily, two hot bimbos took the bus down and wow, we had to miss the stop. we got down the next stop and started discussing if we should just go straight to town or walk back. to get to town, we would have to wait for another bus. to get to holland village, we would have to walk down the long long road under the hot hot sun. and we did it anyway. it was quite fun... actually it was funny. we were talking nonsense and screaming and shouting and doing really indecent stuff that you shouldn't know about.

and finally we reached breko at holland village. had a lovely lunch and eavesdropped on the table opposite filled with girls who were... erm... much worse off then we were. just imagine a group of phoebes and jaimes, you'll know what i mean. then we started talking about accents and slangs and how horrible singapore english is and it went on. actually, we were talking about the table opposite in a more discreet way. to put it in a nice way, we were just having a critical discussion. ok, i just meant bitching.

well, then we went off to marina and did some other stuff and ended it at starbucks. lovely. thanks babe. :)

tired...

im getting tired of many things. school. eating. assignments. (just not exercise) im tired of dragging my ass to school everyday. im tired of thinking of what to eat. im tired of trying to make my assignments perfect at the last minute.

lazy...

im too lazy for many things. school. eating. assignments. (just not exercise) im too lazy to go to school, but i still end up there in the end cos i won't have anything to do either. im too lazy to get proper food so im only eating a proper breakfast and dinner and chocolates and candies fill my day. im too lazy to get my assignments done when i have the time to, so i end up staying up all night to get it done. and i always get it done!

well, being tired and lazy isn't quite a good combination.

im trying really hard to have fun this last 2 weeks of year 2005. but it sucks. im not having fun. im just not myself anymore. come back soon...

Life of Pi

wow, i started reading again. reading is fun! thanks to peter yap wan shern, reading is fun! im gonna be intellectual and smart. one day, i'll be so smart that... i'll be so intellectual. hmm... guess its easier to stay a bimbo.

the silence was quite noisy,
i couldn't understand.
like twinkle blinking lights,
and dry and smooth, fine sand.

funny how i try,
to tell you how i feel.
and nothing quite comes out,
it never was quite real.

today is friday... peter left today. had breakfast at king albert park macs, then he had to go. sigh... im fine peter. im fine... :)

then after school, jaime and i decided to 'celebrate' the end of the 1st half of this semester. so we went to corduroy and finch to binge on sweet stuff. so we had a trifle and chocolate cake! is that evil or evil!!!

yeah it's gotten into jaime. she loves it!

as usual, i never really look glamorous eating!

ok, so after a while, jaime and i got bored, so we decided to visit the toilet. check out this cool tap!

yeah and as usual, we were fascinated with anything and everything!

peteryapwanshern... well, its one more day. like really one more day. but u know what? i'll be fine. just fine... :)

i've got plenty of work to complete...

im lost.

two more days...

damn it. im gonna be fine... as peter always tells me. but i can't help being upset. argh! damn it!!! but this week has been fun. its movie everyday with peter. and yeah, i haven't done that before and whoa... well, peter's been really nice to me. so liz, if you're reading this, don't worry for me, im fine! :)

peter, stop drinking so much u thing! the liver still wants to live. stop it!!! save that money and we can catch more movies! cool? yeah fine... maybe not. but thanks for everything peter. i can't tell u how grateful i am for u being here for me. i never expected so much from u. thanks for always telling me that i'll be ok. i know its tiring hearing me whine and complain so much. thanks for just listening to me. thanks peter. thanks... :)

two more days...

happy as a candy bar,
and silly like a truffle.
foolish to join the game,
to swim in lots of laughter.

unhappy like an owl,
and broken into pieces.
seperate from the tree,
and lost in my wishes.

3 more days...

today is monday. and it always sucks cos the lectures start at bloody freakin 8am! and it drags on till like 4pm. but today, its special... cos there's no more radio lectures for now and we end at 3pm. like wow... that's a 'big' difference. 3 more days.

peter booked tickets for chicken little. its as good as peter's jokes. 3 more days. ok maybe it made me laugh a little. and it was a little entertaining. but i was falling asleep. so peter was poking me. and he's wierd laughter kinda kept me awake. and he actually found the movie funny. like no way... sigh... 3 more days.

wow. its been 12 days. but it seemed forever. i really miss lizzie. i miss going out with her when im bored. i miss calling her up to go out with me when im bored. i miss her being paranoid at everything. i miss her complains that i never really understood. i miss her. sigh... 3 more days.

im gonna be all alone! it'll be no liz, yien or peter!!! oh poor me... there'll be no one to listen to my nonsense and no one to try to laugh at my lame jokes! oh oh oh... now i have to think of what to do while im alone! :(

ok, but anyway, peter and i went to visit Carl's Jr today and its all Carl's fault that we left feeling like shit! argh... it was so horrible! in fact, it was forrid! then we went to town to cancel his gym membership which he so intelligently signed up for last year and he obviously didn't go for it! i really don't understand how he only eats and sleeps and drinks all day and he's still so bloody freakin thin! like what's wrong with him?

after all that, we decided to visit yien at her place... and peter insisted that he wanted to say goodbye... and i, being nice and sweet as usual, bought her some royce chocolates in champange! yum... and of cos it was for me too! haha... yeah and we surprised her, literally, at her hse and whee... we had fun again with the damn xbox and wow... im getting good at it! just that peter won again! damn...

then, yien left for india... sigh... and peter will be leaving next friday... sigh again... and i'll be all alone... sigh even more... hmm... sigh...

sweet as sugar,
sour as a lime.
funny like a cow,
as poor as a dime.

big like a giant,
small like flies.
many like a herd,
and only few hot guys

silly like yien,
greedy like feebee.
as thin as peter,
as tall as lizzie!

i had a warm chocolate cake from starbucks again.

i am a pig.

i am turning into a monster!!!

i've not been good, cos i've been feeding on too much comfort food since last week... i've had like starbucks, marmalade pantry, corduroy and finch, and a party with alcohol, and gelare today!!! argh!!!!!!! im a pig!!!

well, but yeah although im a pig, im still the feebee everyone loves! :)

it was a horrible monday morning. i took a short 3 hrs nap for the night and i had to drag my ass to school for a bloody lecture at 8am! but of cos, the day wasn't that bad after all... peter, yien and i ended up at corduroy and finch again!!!

this it the corduroy and finch trifle! i tell u... it rocks!!! like vanilla ice-cream with brownie bits and nuts and mixed berries on top... simply heaven!

this is an evil piece of thing! its a bloody chocolate cake!!! and its has a chewy brownie-like texture and erm, nuts and argh... i just wanna gobble it all up!

well, it really is great to have a babe who loves chocolates and sweet desserts too... and haha... we're wearing green again! i swear we didn't colour coordinate!!!

yeah as usual, peter is always amused with anything and everything! but he really makes good company! and his face went horribly red when he mentioned something... now what was it? i can't remember though... oops!

wow, it was a lovely party to celebrate John's 21st! great food, great place, great friends! It was a formal party with dim lights by the pool at The Marbella... and with music and ambience... perfect! just that i've got assignments to complete when i got home... does that suck or suck? oh well...

well, i had fun anyway... but i should really kick that awfully bad habit of playing before work... oh what a terrible person!

and to lizzie, now don't cry at my entries anymore! this one is happy! see... im happy and having fun! don't worry about me ok. u have fun and take care of urself! i'll see u soon... love u! :)

ok, i'll admit it to u guys. im upset. i know i am upset. at least now i know. i've probably been trying to psycho myself that i am perfectly fine, but i think i really am upset. too many things happened at the same time and i think that's why i decided to shut myself out from everything else that's happening. but thanks peter, yien and mari. thanks for being there for me when i really needed you guys. even though i kept saying i was ok, you guys knew that i needed company and stayed by my side. i really appreciate it.

it was thursday and after school, i was really feeling it. thanks yien, for keeping me company. we had great subway and a walk around the esplanade. beautiful place for a chill. i really felt better. thanks for being there when i really need you. :)

Then came friday, i didn't wanna be alone again. Peter suggested that we go out. so i got yien along and we had yummy sandwiches at corduroy and finch. i was really quiet. i really didn't know what to say, so i just decided to listen to the both of you talk about everything else... then you guys had to pause and stare at me. so i had to blurt out something, which explains why half of whatever i said didn't make sense! sorry guys, i was horrible company.

and after lunch, i was undecided. part of me was lethargic and wanted to rest, yet i wanted company. i hated being alone. so yien suggested we chill at her place. thanks babe. so peter and i went over to yien's place for x.box! wow, i actually played halo2 and peter killed me like all the time. the only time i killed him was when i snatched his handset away. but i had fun guys. thanks. :)

the tide rose too fast,
and the current rushed by.
i cannot really swim,
only she knows why.

i never had a frown,
when i saw her face.
she'll never let me drown,
whatever the case.

things were meant to be,
i never considered,
that one day when she's gone,
whether i would wither.

other things hopped in,
onto my little boat.
its getting too heavy,
too hard to stay afloat.

help is round the corner,
but way beyond my reach.
im not a good swimmer,
she isn't here to teach.