i found this really interesting:

"Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome."

i wonder what it would be like if i die tomorrow.

im scared of dying. of cos im scared to die. there are so many things i've got in this world that i don't wanna leave behind. but if, if i do die tomorrow, i wanna be remembered as:

1. someone who really loved her family, had a space for God in her life.
2. someone who really treasured her friends.
3. a health nut who would have tried to preserve her life a little longer by eating 'hamster food' and apples.
4. someone who was aspiring to be a 'tai-tai' by the age of 30 and a mother of 5 kids.
5. a talented artist who wished she had opportunities to learn.

see you in heaven.